i uh.... goddamnit i'm really not in the mood for this. Something morbid happened all of a sudden just now, will fill ya'll in later in this post.
but first, let me just fill ya'll in on what's happened during my 3-month absence.
Entered Tsun Jin Idol. Was very surprised to know my band'd entered the finals, we decided to do something no-one else(i think) did before-- mixing 3 songs together as 1. Aand we chose pop-rock, cuz their songs are quite similar in terms of tempo and beats and stuff.
After weeks of discussing we'd successfully mixed Fall For You, To Be With You and It's My Life into one song. Can't say it's perfect, but it sounded good, and it's already too late by the time we'd finished mixing to add any additions so....
And it's technically the 1st time for me to receive vocal training, Thank You Mr. Abby for taking your time to teach the tone-deaf me, i'm doin muchmuchmuch better with my singing now.
But even with all our efforts dumped into it, we'd still failed. And i can quite confidently say it's 90 per cent MY fault. I really don't understand why, I remember nailing the song perfectly just before the show, but somehow.... I cant do the same thing on stage. It's not stage fright(seriously).
It's fatigue.
With all said and done, I am terribly sorry to my bandmates- Douglas, JS, Sh3n and Mr. Abby, sorry for disappointing ya'll that day. And many thanks for being able to teach me despite my tone-deafness.
And thank you for supporting me, even if you didn't. Honestly, I don't have the mood to care now, just wanna say thank you to someone.
NEXT.
Bought a guitar. Thank You Mr. Liew, and Thank You Liew Dao Shyan(don't know who you are, but thanks for being in the same school as me.) for your unfathomable generosity,
thank you for the free strap, free gig bag, free picks and strings, all under the beautiful price of RM490 discounted to RM 470. Seriously, thank you, hope you live a prosperous life in the future.
(will post pic of my guitar in another post. 0 mood for photography now, sorry.)
NEXT.
By re-election I was voted to be the next Chairman of my Comic Club, I really have no idea so many people are unhappy with the 1st arrangement, and criticism without mercy is okay, but please, ya'll are only goddamned teenagers, studying in the same school too, so please have some respect for your seniors, no matter how much you detest her.
Thank You, I'll do my best next year.
Thank You, I'll do my best next year.
NEXT.
Exams. I did well, I did better. Passed most the ones I'd wanted to, and barely survived the ones i didn't care about.
Summing everything up my average should be around 61 or 62, which is rather surprising.
Thank You Mr. Bai, Racheal, Sin Fah, Hong Chun and Kian Weng, the front 2 for helping out on my studies, the latter 3 for... you know... Assisting in my examinations ahem.
NEXT.
Onto the main focus of this post. For most of you out there studying in the same class as I am, or you're one of my sisters or cousins, you should now I'm rather madly in love(really) lately, as for who this lady is, I shall not announce in this blog. Look at my blogroll on the right for obvious answers.
If YOU're reading this, good.
okay, for the 1st time ever in TERMI-nate-OR, your host NATHAN YONG will blog about his ahem, love?
the reasons- I shall not discuss, if you'd fallen in love before, you KNOW there aren't logical any reasons for a person to fall in love, even for adults.
I am not a poet, nor am i a lyricist, my method of showing my feelings are only limited to adjectives and adverbs. Untouching at all, I know.
I'd fallen in love; Two weeks ago i'd witnessed something that had completely broken my heart, unable to bear it any longer, i confessed. And the response should be obvious, denial.
Said she needed some time to think, and of course, I gave her all the time she'd needed to consult with herself. Days later she'd settled on 2 words: 2. ys.
Is it a definite win after 2 years? I'd asked: No answer.
(edit: i'm not mad!!!)
Honestly i don't mind that answer, you can't rush these things. And till now we're still very friendly with each other, with not a single speck of awkwardness, and i daresay the past few months spending time talking and going out with YOU had been the best moments of my Senior 2 life. Thank You.
Somehow after all the events in July and August, I was in a state of heartbreak and angst.
But You changed everything.
I'd stopped looking at the past, began practicing my guitar skills, started to study, stopped swearing so much, stopped playing too much video games, started to actually have a target, a reason to work hard.
Singing and playing the song Pretend(and lots of other songs) to you, taking you out, caring bout you and giving my all to make you happy,
yes, to some, maybe You too, these are the typical things a teenager experiences and does when he's young and immature..
i dont know.
i dont care.
I'll say it again: YOU are the only one i want, i'll give you my best and wait for you, no matter how long it'll take.
I don't care how weird this looks on text: I Love You.
Thank You for all the bliss and laughter you'd given to me. =)
other readers may laugh at me in the comments section or at me in person for being so un-macho and weird in this blog, but the above statement is my own feelings in the purest form, so go ahead and laugh, but before you do, think bout how well you're doing in your own love life first. Thank you.
BUT.
it seems, I was either too confident or too stupid lately, i don't even know how you feel towards me, i don't even know what'll happen after two years of waiting.
I don't even know, if (fingers crossed), you're already into someone else.
I honestly don't know.
I just saw something, rather foreboding and menacing, that had completely shattered my confidence in this campaign.
Am I thinking too much? God knows.
You people might say i'm just being paranoid or i'm taking this waaay too seriously.
Of course i'm taking this waaaaay too seriously, this is my goddamned future!
But i'll do my best. =)
I don't know how to end this post. Damnit November's supposed to be my favourite month of the year!
Once again, Thank You everyone who'd supported my band,
Thank You Dad for buying my guitar, Sorry for the RM330 phone bill,
Thank You to all those who had given me support, encouragement and advice during these two months.
Lastly, Thank YOU for changing my life. =)
Goodbye, and Thank You for taking your time to read this post, sorry for the total absence of pictures.
